Momentary Misery

The roses bear

Thorns along stout

Stems proudly held

In bloody fists

And the beauty

Of

Each petal’s

Velvet undulation

Adorned with dew

Droplets

Tracing precariously

Along the edges

Of

Endings

Inspires poets

To define and grasp

Their momentary

Misery

A rose

Arose

But not

Without thorns

For any of us…


Vacancy

Because you so often stand

Empty

While Others fill themselves

Full

With positions, possessions without  

Purpose

And you remain empty still

Waiting

For more

I love you. 

Socially Connected Life of #Bloggers

words on my screen

tokens of life well lived

speaking of actions

attitudes

options

for living

 

words of your journey

signs

revealing and peeling

back me to me to thrive

live

choose

growing

 

words launched into timeless space

afloat in e-land

wandering

seeking you until

they

come home and sink deep

settling

inward discord

recording new

words of you

my friend

Divine Flirtations

There is always much more.

In each combination
a savoring nuance blended from that moment's ingredients 
Do you hear that...  that unknown laugh?
It makes me smile.
Who is that?
Even in the mundane, methodical rhythm of talking
we stumble
on the euphoria
of an additional smile
an amalgamation of chemical strokes and spiritual caresses
as if we should have been here all along. 
There seems to be more, always.
More to know, feel, grasp, share...

God is such a flirt.

 

Waning Man

Youth breaks in him

An inaudible scream

Like the soliloquy

Of a season

The last cicada's

Cry into the night

A muted announcement of

Unwanted waning

 

Too Full

The quill swells full

Dripping onyx truths

Upon parchment

Unable to spill

Small enough droplets

To inscribe

You

 

The Last Cicada

The last cicada sings

Into the crisp fall air

A final proclamation of

Fall’s end, winter’s era

Leaves cling

To branches high

Not one wants

To surrender and die

A father dreams

Of his son’s flight

But silence returns

From youth's seasoned night

Seasons change

Seasons go

Seasons remain

Ever so slow

Summer leaves

To find its fall

The stillness breaks

Upon us all – we fall

The last cicada sings

The final tear drops

We are cold

We are small

A baby cries

Her first breath of life

Mother’s arms are broken

An infant will live in strife

Seasons change

Seasons go

Seasons remain

Ever so slow

Sometimes we must burrow

Deep into earth

Waiting there, searching

For the matter of our birth

Remembering when we can

That as this begins

We can endure as

The last cicada sings

Seasons change

Seasons go

Seasons remain

Ever so slow

The last cicada sings

Into the crisp fall air

A final proclamation of

Fall’s end, winter’s era

 

In Between

in between

dusk and flickering candles.

sensations of

in between

baked cookie caresses from a plate of crumbs

in between

a leaf falling upward, riding on the breeze of summer's heat rising

in between

silent breath of your voice pausing between thoughts and measured words

in between

the end and the beginning

the alpha and the omega

the dream and the hope

there for a moment

in between

 

Faded Photos

Trembling fingers hold

Tenaciously

The dog-eared photos of youth

Closed eyes search

Caves

Among imagination of shadow and light

Wavering hope yields

Woefully

Finding memories lost

Peeling corners loose

Precisely

This memory

All but forgotten

Relief

Wandering in the woods

Or In the mind

Of seasoned 'scapes

Brings Lavish

Daylight dreamers

Present clarity

 

Telling Dreams

It is so clearly wrong

It is so clearly what I want

So, there in such a great cloud of

Witnesses

Judges

Advocates

I dream of choice and find

I can choose wrong

Wrong is pain

Pain is  living

So, I'd rather be dead

Wrong than dutifully

Written

Something Found


Then
I found myself humming
Into the mattress
With you
It was an accidental thing
An exhale that sent a slight vibration
Through the sheets
and
I enjoyed the sound
The sense
Of my humming
Beside you –
and you
Laughed at me
Those ripples made me giggle
And roll joyfully
Leaving dis-ease
There, Then
I found myself
Humming into the mattress
With you

Still..the...Pain...refresh


pain
i need to escape
must still the pain

inviting glances, her voice purrs delight
perhaps she will, maybe i might
curves of delight, soft to the touch
i'll yield to her embrace, receiving much

passion will save me, ignited by lust
healing me forever, a longing that must
be united by voracious appetite
here i'll finally find, ease in this night

morning greets me, empty and spent
for long was the journey, dark places i went
memories haunt me, where i have lain
for bliss has left me, still the pain

i cannot go on
i am beaten and crippled
i endure
and, still the pain

hunger drives me, desire to be feed
with buffets and banquets, butter and bread
taste so sublime, pleasure my pallet
in this food i will find, relief from it

that starving will cease, cravings no more
so engorge me, fill me that's what i'm for
yet, hunger persists, no relief do i gain
with belly filled, there is still the pain

i cannot go on
i am beaten and crippled
i endure
and, still the pain

look doctor i cry, see this injury here
without your attention, i'll die, i fear
so now i've found, the answer i sought
it runs through my veins, these pills i have bought

for no more do i feel, that pain now so dull
gone forever i know, i'm truly once full
wait, it fades now, give me again
that treatment so true, ah my new friend

till more's not enough, and much has been lost
i've run from my pain, and see what's cost
i'm faded and gaunt, alone in the rain
for here i'm once more, still the pain

i cannot go on
i am beaten and crippled
i endure
and, still the pain

now the pain does it's work, i'm twisted and torn
empty and broken, weathered and worn
this vessel of nothing, a shattered jar of clay
i know the sun will not rise upon me today

here i seek that so deeply sought
the essence of ease, that couldn't be caught
by the desire of man, or the skills of gain
for Surrender has found me here stills the pain

i cannot go on
i am beaten and empty
i surrender
and, still now is the pain

Bleed

sometimes
i want to bleed
let the ruby stream flow
from self inflicted wounds lost
rush forth, spilling
pulsing screams found
velvet waves overflowing proper boundaries

i want to bleed
washing out decaying debris
sweeping rotting carcasses
foul organic rot surged from veins
of now remembered errors
move on, ever away to another place

i want to bleed
until the last drop fall silently
on sun baked stones
tears of fault upon a parched beds
lingering dust, rolling

lifeless shadows reaching
to passers by
who walk
mindless of the flood that once flowed
all the while
knowing they too want to bleed

Minority Report

Your minority reporting, discriminating
Labels make you scream
At me
WASP
White
Anglo-Saxon
Protestant
Middle-Class
And
Male
Thus you label me
And with it
You paint me
Enemy

And with it
You catalogue my evils against you
And you rail, righteously
And rightfully
Against predisposed claims of
Superiority, authority and dominance
From you, the minority anger
Shouts about and wraps me into scripts
Straight!
Patriarchal!
Sexist!
Materialistic man!
Establishment keeper!
Oppressor!
Unfair trader!
Consumer of goods and souls!
WASP! Male!

Thus, you label me.
Typing your script in fine and precise
Accusations, lashes
Slap me with the permanent writing
Of your label
For me
And I
Hurt

Why must you speak of me in such rage?
Cataloguing blame on me
Sorting me into boxes of wrongs
Throngs of prejudicial files
Filed away, sorted names
I have other labels, too
Divorced
Addict
Fatherless
Short
Too young
Too old
Unworthy
Insecure
Neurotic
ADD
Privileged…

Files those away and sort us together
Perhaps, just maybe, we are not that different – you and I
WASP’s wounds are wounds still
Put that in your minority report
And consider, just consider
We are all damaged goods

Spanish Moss


Clinging to branches among the oaks
Timeless observer of time's passing
You sway through breezes and revolutions
Directing humanity's passage
As if orchestrating a divine symphony

With nothing but a wisp connecting you
To the lofty vantage from which you
Observe us, coy and unaffected
Your slight presence fans our dreams
As a winter wind stirs the smoldering fire

Little more than air feeds you
A hint of sea salt to spice your tasting
Of our adventures and chaos
You remain, lingering luscious
As the memory of a lover's sigh

Eternally upon us

On Having Lunch at Panera


The din resonates
Countless voices frantically
Proclaim facades and personas

Below the cascade
Simplistic souls stand
Wall flowers alone and longing

Within, a voice asks
Shall we dance?

Free Dive


I thought only death would be so peaceful
My ears are useless, muffled, and deaf
I don’t breath now, lungs stopped, idol
My heart slows, relaxing under increased pressure
Sight is all that remains
And that an opaque vision of color and life

I can’t stay here, not and live
This momentary peace must yield
To the screams of my lungs and flesh
So I head toward the surface
To the world of air breathing creatures
And over stimulated demands

Note: On free diving in the Atlantic near Bermuda.

Waving Goodbye


A Child

Pats the water with her foot

Ripples

Spread gently, caressing the surface

Gliding outward, searching for shore

Fading to smooth




Tiny toes

Break the fluid plain

Movement

Life upon the stillness

Reaching

Longing

Hoping for a place to land




Again and again

Each gentle touch fades

Weakened waves reaching

Never touching the distant sand

Destination




SPLASH!




Surges churn turbulence of sea

Arms and legs violate the stillness

Liquid rage calls

To the depths

Unknown concentric waves

Demanding, diminishing, stopping




Stillness

Descending shimmers

Calming the spot

Closing the circle

Cessation




Now

On a distant shore

Small ripples lap the sand

Lap the sand

Home



-Once, an adolescent that I knew took her own life. This poem is in memory of her.